I loved you

I loved you

You said we should be together

I loved you

You were to look after me – however

 I loved you

Now I don’t believe you loved me … ever!


I loved you

Marriage was just the start

I loved you

Gave you my all, plus my heart

 I loved you

But you just took and remained apart

I loved you

Wanted to help, to become a team

You stayed aloof and ruined my dream

I said I was pregnant and felt such a glow

You turned at the door and just said “I know”


I loved you

Twins they said. A girl and a boy?

I loved you

But you sucked away at all my joy!

 Yet I loved you

Meant to please you, not to annoy

I loved you

Lost the babes after a hospital stay

I loved you

You didn’t care much, you just turned away

I loved you

“Work” you said ”we need the pay”

I loved you

I thought the compassion would come

I loved you

You’d see me anew. Again I ‘d be The One

I loved you

But belittling me you thought was fun

I loved you

He’ll change I thought, give him time

But the company he craved wasn’t mine

No! Golf and cards. Computer games

For me cold rejection and deriding my fame

Yet I loved you

After trials and troubles a baby arrived

I loved you

Thank you, God. This one survived I loved you

But you left us alone. No sign of pride

Yet I loved you

Ever hopeful! A year or so passed

I loved you

I truly hoped out marriage would last

I loved you

I worked and worked, but you spent the money too fast

I loved you

Another baby lost and deeply mourned for

I loved you

You were cross my future earnings looked poor

Did I love you?

Our life together now seemed unsure

I loved you

Babies for me were a difficult option

I loved you

We talked a little. Like you. An adoption?

I loved you

But my earnings were needed. No other option.

Did I love you?

You were cold with our son. Never played!

I loved you

Always hoping you’d change. So I stayed

I loved you

At last again – pregnant! A girl you wanted made!

I loved you

I worked in the kitchen, I worked with our baby.

I loved you

Commercials and chat shows, quizzes and – maybe …

I loved you

Perhaps all would come right? We had money – they paid me.

I loved you

At last we had two sons. I was happy – life was just glorious

I loved you

“Play with us! Stay with us! Are you not curious?”

We loved you

You preferred ‘Lone Time’. You were spiteful and furious!

I loved you

So many changes! That’s why he’s mean!

Please. Cherish your sons and not just demean!

All their efforts. You scowled and seemed ..

To draw further apart.

Cold and hurtful. You have no heart.

I loved you

You took everything. You made us al cry!

I loved you

I kept thinking – one day he’ll try!

I loved you

But I don’t anymore.

So, this is goodbye.

Jenny Hanley